Struggle is such a nasty word. We don’t really want people to know we struggle. Then it means we are failing.
Lately, I’ve been struggling in Jiu Jitsu. I also feel like I’m struggling with laundry, dishes, cleaning, you know Life in general. I’ve been struggling in teaching. Let me tell ya schooling 3 boys isn’t that easy and I do applaud all the teachers who go to school and teach many kids every day.
It’s a daily struggle to be obedient, for the boys and for me.It is hard to listen to what God is telling us to do or not to do. I believe at times the NOT doing is harder than the is doing.
We have become so impatient that sitting and waiting on God has become such a burden to us. We feel that we should have an answer now, not later. That our problems should be fixed now, or that what we want is better than what God has in store for us.
God doesn’t fit in our box or eve in our timeline. With jiu jitsu, I have to wait, move slowly, watch my opponent, see what moves she/he is making and then go in for points or a submission. I have to try to guess what they are doing. If I make a mistake, it’s over. I’ve lost.
God sometimes has us wait patiently. Maybe an hour, a week, a month, or even a year. But if I don’t the consequences could be greater than just losing a match. I could lose my self, I could cause someone else to stumble or I could cause them to turn from God and that is the last thing I want to do.
Patience is something I don’t have a lot of, it’s probably the reason I lose a lot of my matches.
I’m learning in jiu jitsu and I’m learning with God. I have to be PATIENT.
The end of a matter is better than it’s beginning; and patience is better than pride.
If I want to live a Godly life, I need love, grace, mercy and patience. For me, they all go together.
Therefore, when I struggle with my every day, I have to stop, pause and remember, I have a loving Father who wants the best for me. A merciful God who forgives when I make a mistake. A God who shows grace when I am wrong.
A God who has patiently waited for my heart to turn towards him.
Thank you for another day. A chance to see your beauty in this world we live in. Help me today as I go about may daily life. Help me with my struggles, guide me in the way I should go. Keep my eyes and my heart turned towards you. Help me to do you will.
Not everyone has the same struggles, but when you feel out of balance, turn to God and see what he says. He may just need you to be patient.