As we start into February, I realize that we are changing. Our family is moving in different directions. Change is not bad, it is just different at first.
Caleb is getting more in to the Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, Brent is moving away from it towards Tae Kwon Do and Davin,well he just still likes it all.
I have found that we need this sport. We need the structure it provides, the discipline, the workout,because let’s face it, we aren’t getting any younger. I’ve also learned that they are ready for it to just be a fun sport. They are at a point where they don’t want to compete locally, they want to have fun. Let me tell ya it is hard for this competitive momma. It is hard to not want to push them to be better.
Yet, how can I do that if I’m not pushing myself? I struggle every day in my weight, my walk with God, my marriage. Out of all those things, I push to be a better wife, I push to be closer to God, I push to help with my weight.
I realize I can do more so much more. But I don’t. Why? It is too hard. This is the truth. There isn’t another answer.
With this troublesome realization, I know that I have to stop pushing my kids and push myself. Focus that into being a better me and then everything will work itself out. I can’t force them to be who they aren’t, do what they don’t want to do.
We bought some amazing exercise equipment over the last week, this will be the month that i put them to use. This will be the day I start regaining my life and saying I can do this, i will do this.
I will push myself to get closer to God. I will start my day in his word no matter what.
I will push myself in my marriage. I will start by honoring my husband, listening to him, helping me, working WITH him.
I will push myself in my weight. I will strive to work out, to eat healthier than I have been to make better choices. To use the things God has given me to stay healthy for myself first and then my family.
I think that is what it comes down to in the end. Your Why? Why are you doing this? Why do you want to change? I know I can’t change over night, but I can implement one change every month.
I plan to use a daily log to help me in this adventure. I thought I would share it with you all in case you wanted to join along with me.